1.
I was born on September 4th, 1955, in New Orleans, Louisiana. I was raised there and graduated from
high school in 1973 from Marion Abramson Senior High School in New Orleans
East. I was married in 1973 and
gave birth to a son, Stephen, on September 30, 1975. I have a granddaughter, Victoria, age
10, and a grandson, Andrew, age 3, who both live with their mother and
father in Louisiana. I joined the
U.S. Air Force on November 1, 1977 and retired 20 years later on December 1,
1997. While on active duty, I
served in Saudi Arabia for 6½ months during Desert Shield and Desert Storm. I was also able to acquire my Bachelor
of Science Degree in Psychology in the area of counseling from Eastern New
Mexico University at Portales. I
continued my graduate studies after retirement, completing 51 hours of masters
work in Counseling Psychology in 1998 at the same college. I worked for the State of New Mexico for
7 years, as a worker who evaluates eligibility for Welfare, Food Stamps, and
Medicaid.
2.
In July of 2005, I was carrying a box into my home, up a few stairs, and
lost my balance. When I fell back
on my right knee with all the weight of this box and my personal weight, I felt
a tear in my knee. This was a
strange accident since I could have easily purchased a dolly, and it might not
have happened at all. My next
walking step told me that I had done some damage to that knee. My life was never the same after that
day. I believe now, looking back on
it, that it was no accident, and actually an attempt to slow me down and point
my life in a different direction. I
did not work for the next entire year.
I was forced to remove all the money from my retirement fund with the
State of New Mexico, in order to live.
It is very humbling to be comfortable and then all of a sudden to be
seriously budgeted. This was the
lowest point in my life. I was
walking with crutches or a cane to get around and do the simplest of
chores. I was in constant
pain. I then found myself in the
midst of the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina, trying to help my parents with
their destroyed home, when I could barely walk myself. Helping others who are worst off than
you are can be a spiritually rewarding experience.
3.
During this time, I began to read Sylvia Browne’s books. I found solace and humor in the pages of
her books, and that was truly the beginning of my own spiritual path. I read her Book of Angels and bought an
inexpensive tape recorder. I read
every meditation from this book directly into that tape recorder. I would play my voice back and
visualize, falling into a deep meditation and even sleep. It was difficult at first to concentrate
but seemed easier as I continued to do it.
What could it possibly hurt, right?
I was already in pain. Then
slowly but surely, I began feeling better, and I was reminded by Sylvia of how
to pray. "Prayer" is asking God for
help and "Meditation" is listening for the answer. I was thankful and grateful for the ease
of pain, so I needed to pray to express my gratitude. My background is Catholic, so I have
prayed all my life but never with zeal except during Desert Storm when I thought
it might be my last prayer. I never
quite got the Catholic doctrine.
Not enough of my questions were ever answered. I would say,” This does not make
sense.” It was explained by elder
Catholics by saying “you must believe it based on Faith
alone." I would usually reply with a joke about my middle name being
Faith (which it is), but I still didn't quite get
it.
4.
When I felt well enough, I traveled on my own to Kansas City,
Missouri, to see Sylvia Browne lecture on one of her tours. I got a great deal on the plane ticket
and had just enough money to do it and be able to stay at a decent, but not the
best hotel. Her lecture was
interesting. I watched and listened
carefully to Sylvia speak and tried to detect her motive from her manner. I tried to sense with my limited
intuition if she had anything but the purest of intentions. I wondered if it could all somehow be a
hoax for the stage and money. But
she sounded and appeared to be so genuine.
Could she be a messenger from God, sent to help us through this
life? I can now remember that night
as being one of the most emotional and moving for me. I was in pain from standing in the isles
to hear her clearly. My
least-expensive seat was so far away that the sound did not carry
clearly. Despite the pain of
standing, I found myself in the presence of so much positive energy and
love. I’d never felt that kind of
energy around me before. It was a
bit overwhelming to say the least.
I just absorbed it all into my memory. I wanted to understand where that energy
came from.
5.
Toward the end of the lecture, Sylvia said “And now we are going to do a
healing meditation. This meditation
works, so you may not feel it immediately but over a period of time healing does
occur. I get calls all the time
about how well this healing works.”
I thought to myself, “Sharon, now you need to memorize what she
says.” That was a funny thought
later, considering that the next few minutes I spend sobbing and trying not to
be seen doing so by anyone in the audience. How embarrassing to be a grown woman and
cry uncontrollably for the entire meditation. And I don’t mean a few tears here and
there. I mean a real explosion with
flowing tears, like the floodgates had been opened. When it was finally over, and I was able
to catch my breath, I thought, “What was that about?” I was definitely drained by the time the
lecture ended, but I felt a sense of relief somehow like a light bulb went off
in my head and a feeling of hope on was finally on the horizon.
6. I
didn’t feel well enough to wait in line to meet Sylvia after the show for an
autograph, but it was the most worthwhile trip for me otherwise. I
understood for the very first time what it felt like to be enlightening and
loved on a spiritual level. That one healing meditation was so intense for me
that it propelled me to continue on my own spiritual path to whatever the future
might hold. Prior to that, I’m not
sure I really wanted to live the rest of my life in that kind of pain. I am still considered disabled by the
Veterans Administration because I do have disabling problems that keep me from
working sometimes, but my chronic pain is virtually gone. When it surfaces occasionally, I am
quick to put it at bay by asking for healing, meditating, and yes even
directing healing I feel comes from the power of my mind through
visualization.
7.
As I continued to read Sylvia’s books, I kept hearing about her Spirit
Guide “Francine,” who kept her advised of her path and gave her comfort in times
of need. I thought to myself “I
must not be that special.” If I had
a spirit guide, he or she hadn’t said a word to me in 51 years. That for me was a depressing thought…to
have a Spirit Guide, that had not done or said anything to help me through
life...or maybe, I had been ignoring any input or attempt…that was an even more
depressing thought. I went to bed
that night meditating and questioning if I had a Spirit Guide because I knew in
my heart that I was a good person, however misguided at the moment. I was just about to get to sleep, kind
of in that "not awake but also not asleep yet" time period, when all of a sudden
out of the darkness of my mind, I heard a voice say clearly “Elizabeth,” as
if replying to my question. I was
jolted awake with my eyes wide open. I stopped all thoughts and replayed
that one event in my head, wondering if I had actually heard it or dreamed
it. The voice sounded a bit
irritated with me, like I should know her name already.
8.
With that one word, I found the beginnings of my relationship with an
entity, who had probably been trying for my entire life to get my
attention. I felt how frustrated
she must have been with me having pushed the ignore button early on in my
life. I also remembered an event in
elementary school where I met a girl named “Elizabeth,” and I remember saying to
her that I liked her name. But when
another girl asked if I knew someone else with that name, I could not think
of anyone I had ever known. There
was a weird sense within me that I did know another Elizabeth. I found it strange that my mind could
play that kind of trick on me. With
all my societal pressures to conform, I learned early to dismiss any unusual
feelings or thoughts I had. My
Spirit Guide, Liz (as I call her now), continues to say very few words but
always ones that mean so much to me. I even asked to see what she looked
like and had a visual of a woman with dark hair, worn up in love locks (if you
remember those), and she was not very tall, but she projected great love
toward me. So I know what she looks and feels like
now.
9. I
also felt that my entire life was filled with emotional confusion and a
lingering depression. I read
Sylvia’s book on Past Lives, Future Healing and remembered that I had been
born with a distinct birthmark on my forehead. This had always been a
curious thing for me since it stared back at me in the mirror when I was
younger. I wondered if I had been shot in a prior life as many birthmarks
indicate. People even commented to me as a child that I looked like I
had been shot in the forehead. This
led me to want Past Life Regression Hypnosis. I was not able to find a hypnotist
specializing in doing it near where I lived, and traveling to one was just too
expensive. I read the meditation at
the end of Sylvia’s book on past lives into my recorder and played it
back.
10. The very first past life I saw, in
Mexico, was short lived because I stood up to some bandits, who then shot me
abruptly in the head. I loved
my parents in this Mexico life very much and was very sad to leave them so
suddenly. After this past life
self-regression, I felt a great sense of healing and overwhelming peace. I
actually felt the pain lift from my body when I said in the recording to
release the pain and negativity into the White Light of the Holy Spirit. I continued to ask God to resolve
and release my past life pain into the White Light of the Holy Spirit with every
prayer just as Sylvia suggests. And
after a period of time, I no longer had any confusion about why I was here on
Earth or what happened to me in a past life that might be affecting this
one.
11. Lastly, I joined a single-person Novus
Spiritus Study Group since there were no groups available in my area. I receive a church service CD each
month, which usually has a great healing meditation on it that is part of the
church service. I also found the information from the Journey of Soul
Topics filled with the ‘rest of the story.” I now chat online with friends who are
Gnostic in other parts of the U.S. and have a strong conviction in my
beliefs. I absolutely love that
Gnostic Christianity embraces many religious beliefs, especially those that
embrace a belief in a loving, caring God, and not a God to ever be feared. There really is a thread of
commonality in most religions. You
just have to look for it.
12. I find that some people are
raised in cultures that have the strictest of religious beliefs across
a spectrum and others are raised in cultures with no religious beliefs. It is obviously difficult to have
an encompassing and perfectly correct belief system, so I don’t even
try. There really is no need. Everyone is responsible for his or her
own spiritual path. I think even
those with their own religion, created just for them alone, are still God’s
children and deserve a place to worship and learn about God that is totally free
of religious prejudice. That is the path I have found with Novus
Spiritus.
13. For all the reasons I’ve mentioned
above, I have given my will to God because God's will is no different than
mine. I have asked for psychic and healing abilities, so that I can help
others. This website is the
beginning of my way to empower others to learn more about
their own gifts. Sylvia Browne
has not endorsed this website, nor does she personally profit from it. I just believe that her ministers and
employees do incredible work and deserve all the help they can get to expand
their love and light.
14. You might say that my association with
Sylvia Brown’s books and Novus Spiritus has dramatically changed my
life. My goal is simply to pass
along the love since I am eternally grateful to her and God for my life of
happiness and abundance. The idea
for this website was not mine. It
came to a friend, popping in his head from nowhere. I believe it was infused knowledge and
meant to point me in the right direction.
I have heard that if you do something for the right reason, people will
come and success will follow. So
this venture is my “Field of Dreams.”
15. In April 2007, I completed
training at the Sylvia Brown Hypnosis Training Center in Campbell,
CA. The class lasted 2 weeks, and it was intense training. I learned
to do hypnosis and was surrounded by 15 other loving like-minded women.
There was so much energy in the classroom at times when we all meditated that
the speakers would mysteriously malfunction while the music was playing.
It was such a powerful experience that I would not trade it for
anything.
16. I
did have difficulties getting through the class because I became very ill for
the final exam. I never expected
life to be completely easy. I'd be the first to get bored if life was too
easy. Sylvia Browne did send a message to us on the 4th day
of class. We were only her second hypnosis training ever.
She said she could feel our energy psychically. She said that we were not
there by mistake. We were supposed to be there. She assured us that
we had a mission to help her spread her message and philosophy, and we
were all very capable. I found her words inspiring and felt like we
all got a personal reading from her that day. Some of the things I
experienced in class follow.
17. I
arrived in Campbell, CA, 2 days early for Hypnosis Training Class because I
wanted to attend a Novus Spiritus Church Service on the Sunday
before. I would finally get to participate in a church service,
and I was excited and hoping it was like Sylvia's lecture, and I'd get to
feel all that great energy and love. This was the church Sylvia
founded so it was possible. Novus Spiritus presents a simple service,
so do not expect major adornments or a really large church if you are so blessed
as to be able to visit there and attend. It is a medium size room with a
statue of Azna and a simple cross on the wall above her. There were
folding chairs to sit on.
18. A
minister lights a tall white candle up front at the start and several ministers
participate in the service, sharing their inspirational messages. We were
allowed to write a petition to Azna on a blank sheet of paper and turn it in to
be burned ceremoniously and buried in the garden. Several people stood up
that day and each told a story of how their prayers had been
answered. Some stood up and asked for other prayers too. It was a
very special experience and one I am not likely to forget. That same
overwhelming feeling of love and energy was evident much like at the
lecture, and yes I cried. Not a sad cry, but just more love than my finite
mind could process.
19. I
met another student at the service, Chris, who had the same plan as I did about
getting there early. After the service, Chris asked me if I wanted to go
with her to the Winchester Mystery House. I did not have plans and was
grateful for the company in a new place where I had never been. We took
the tour through the mansion, and I saw a lot of rooms but no ghosts.
It was still daylight, when we were not as likely to see ghosts anyway.
After the tour ended, we decided to grab a bite to eat. Like me, Chris
found solace in the Novus Spiritus philosophy and Sylvia Browne's books.
We had a lot in common and talked about the church service we had
attended and our wonderment about the upcoming class. When we decided
to leave, we walked back to the Winchester Mystery House and sat on
a bench, awaiting the shuttle's return for us. It took a while
for it to come. Since neither of us knew what to anticipate in the class,
we were talking about how excited we were at just being there.
20. The
wind was blowing some but not a lot. The sun was shining, and it was a
beautiful day. All of a sudden, a small cluster of white flowers (round in
shape) rolled across the cement and directly over to me. It had many other
paths it could have rolled but somehow ended up right at my feet. We both
looked around to see of the wind was blowing any other flowers but none could be
found. We were both quiet for a moment until Chris final broke the silence
and said, "well, look at that!" And then of course she wanted to know,
"where's mine?" I told Chris that I was taking that as a sign of good
things to come. We both thought the
flower came from Azna.
21.
During the church service earlier, a woman had stood up and talked about
receiving a yellow rose on her front porch from Azna after petitioning
her. I thought to myself that I had prayed and had prayers answered by
Azna but never did get a flower on my front porch as some have described.
I think that having one propelled at me, by a not so stiff breeze and landing
directly at my feet, would qualify as receiving a flower from Azna. It
gave me a sense of peace and a strong feeling that I was certainly being watched
over. What a great gift to begin my class!
22.
After class, I created a room in my home just for
hypnosis. It is colorful, comfortable, and blessed.
I have since heard soft, relaxed breathing patterns in that room and even a few
light snores. A local newspaper did an article in the business section of
the Clovis News Journal announced my business, and I began getting
busy. I found some spiritual people who wanted to learn more about
Gnosticism in my town. We continued my single-person Study Group by
adding a few more names to the list, and making it an actual Study Group.
23. Every hypnosis session has been an
amazing experience for me. I love seeing clients leave with
a big smile on their face or even with that expression of
curious disbelief. Each client has his or her own experience of
course. Some are filled with vivid memories and others have only
a few. I find that I am guided and so are my clients to where healing
is most needed. Whatever a person's reason for coming to see me,
curiosity, healing, loss love, patience, anxiety, quitting an
addiction, increased intuition, spiritual connection, or just a
need to relax; I find that clients leave having learned something that can
help them. It is powerful information and the goal for me is
individual empowerment. I may only plant the seed, but sometimes that
is enough.
24. I have been warned that some people
might not see my religious point of view. I have no intention of trying to
change anyone's religious point of view. I am no threat to anyone.
My intentions are pure. Anyone who meets me can see, feel, and know
that. I understood the day I signed up for a class to learn Sylvia
Browne's technique for hypnosis that associating my name in any way with hers
would cause me to be a target for the types of slings and arrows she has known
her entire life. I feel sorry for those people who do not like Sylvia
Browne because I see her as bold, intelligent, loving, honest, and very
human.
25. I have never been the type of
person to go along with the majority for the sake of being like everyone
else. Most people do that because it is easier. I find Sylvia
Brown's personality refreshing. Just think about how much guts it would
take to do and say the things she has. What kind of passion would you need
to start your own church. I would love to be able to say I am that
brave. I took this particular hypnosis class for a very good reason.
It is healing. It was self-tested on me personally with miraculous results
before I ever attended the class. I knew how well it could
work. I continue to see different forms of healing in clients every
day that I practice. I am truly Blessed!
26.
Recently, I have had more than one client come in to see me for hypnosis,
who does not have physical or mental problems. They are not
confused and don't feel that they need help. These people want to learn to
be more intuitive. Some want a strong connection to their own
spirituality. I'm not sure if they know that hypnosis will help, but they
seem to understand it can.
27. A
client, who came in for hypnosis in August 2007, was going through a rough time
and was very frustrated when she arrived for the session. She seemed a bit
nervous and agitated, and I had some trouble getting her settled down to
begin. She had no problem seeing different current and past lives during
the session. She had a pattern in fact that I could clearly see with each
discussion, but I really wanted her to see this pattern for herself. Right
before the session ended, she began a discussion about how frustrated she was,
while still under hypnosis. I am led spiritually during a session and will
try things outside my script to help a client. So I said to her "And now I
want you to take a minute and clear your mind. Listen, be calm for
just a moment, open your mind and listen, if you have a question, you can ask it
(in your mind) and the answer will come to you."
28. She got very quiet and after a moment or
two, I said, "Are you getting an answer?" Her response was in a whisper as
she said, "The Lord is speaking to me."
I immediately felt a wave of loving energy come over me. I was
about to start crying because I was struck at the thought of such a wonderful
event actually occurring but was also a bit mesmerized. I could only watch her. She would
listen for a moment and then a wave of peace would come over her face.
Then she started repeating what he was saying. After an even longer
silence, I finally said "Do you understand what he means?" She said
"yes." I asked if he was finished. She said "yes." I brought
her out of the hypnosis, but I could barely speak for fighting back my
joyful tears.
29. When she finally opened her eyes, I
stopped the recorder and said "You invited Jesus to your hypnosis
session?" She then asked "Are you upset?" because she could tell I was
emotional. My voice was still cracking. I said, "No, I'm just
surprised." It was absolutely
the most amazing thing that has every happened in my life, and I still feel
great joy for having been allowed to be a part of the experience. Jesus is
welcome at any and all of my hypnosis sessions. As if he needed an
invitation! The words she heard and repeated that day truly helped
her and gave us both such comfort. This is not a day I'm likely
to ever forget. As I sit here writing this, I wonder if the experience was
for her or me or both of us, or maybe it was for all those who might read this
and feel that wave of love wash over them.
30. This experience has prompted me to add
the asking of a question in my script. I tell client's ahead of time if
they want to do this, decide on a question with a one word answer, like
"yes or no" or "wait or go." But it can really be any question. So
when I come to that place in the script, I ask the question the same as I
found it on the recording from that day. The results have been
amazing. It's like an experience of having a telepathic conversation
with your Spirit Guide without ever opening your mouth. This dialog comes
easy to some but not so easy for others. When it happens under
hypnosis, I believe it mimics the way it should happen in a meditation or
even while awake. It's easier to repeat something you have learned to
do under guidance.
31. My learned intuitiveness was not an easy
journey. It took a long time for me to allow myself to be that
relaxed. However, I think it is a human possibility for anyone to
experience this with some practice. I am so open to any suggestion that
pops in my head now that I actually have information come to me during
a hypnosis session while I am saying my script. The first time it
happened, I thought I was just stumbling over my own words until I realized I
had made a Freudian slip as it's called. The words just came out. I
didn't mean to say them consciously, and I just pressed on with the next
sentence. What I said was "you should forgive yourself." I think
that is even harder to do sometimes than forgiving others. So maybe this
client did need to forget herself. I think we all
do.
32. On August 5, 2007, was the very
first meeting of the Local Clovis Study Group. There were only three
of us in attendance, but it was certainly a start. The first meeting
was a bit of an explanation, which I will repeat at every meeting when
newcomers are in attendance. I am trying to give the people who
attend some flexibility in how we conduct this weekly meeting because it is
our meeting, not just mine. It seems to be a combination of exchanging
information about what Novus Spiritus Gnostic Christianity really is
and prior beliefs and worship. We each contribute to snacks so
hunger does not distract us. It only last about an hour and a half, but I
find it like a spiritual recharge for the week ahead. I feel that same
loving energy in the room when we have these meetings that I have
previously described. I am so happy and grateful to have others with me on
this journey.
33. As part of my spiritual awakening, I
have been trying to understand how to heal. I have always felt that I was
a healer in a past life, and my spirit already knows how to
do it. Except this body does not know how to do it, only my spirit
does. When I asked how the Novus Spiritus ministers do healing after
the church service, I'm told "you are nothing more than a tube, and you just ask
for it." My mind has a long way to go before it's that easy for me, but
I'm getting better.
34. I have been reading everything I can
about healing energy and how other legitimate spiritual healers work. I
have even tried to heal a few willing friends, who always seem to feel
better after. That's of course a good sign. I got all these ideas
about healing from meeting a very powerful healer, who sat next to me and
put his hands over me but was a few feet away. While he was
healing, I could feel the vibration and energy coming from him. This
allowed me to know what vibrations and energy feel like and after that
day, it was like a trigger for me. I had also been writing a short script
or ceremony from what I learned to help everyone cooperate with the healing
process.
35. Along the way, I have been allowed to
meet the rest of my Spirit Guides. I heard that a person really has more
than one Spirit Guide, but the primary is the only one you really need to know
about. Well, I wanted to know them all. I have now seen during
meditation or sleep all of them. I have a primary Spirit Guide named Liz,
who is in charge. I have another named John, who is my relationships
guy. I feel most sorry for him because I have had many daunting
relationships. I think he sometimes has to just laugh at my love
life. And then I met Trent. I don't think Trent is his real name,
but I like that name and probably wouldn't be able to pronounce his if I heard
it or saw it spelled, so Trent is the name I got when I asked. Trent is a
healer, and that made me feel so much better about healing. I have
help. I also met a woman named Lily, who is my Master
Teacher. She has a rough job too. I'm not the easiest student.
I ask a lot of questions.
36. Now I believe that all of the entities
on the Other Side can heal, but I now feel very confident that I can facilitate
this process even if I don't understand it as well as I'd like to. I tell
people sometimes that it's alright if I forget or miss something in hypnosis
because my Spirit Guides won't, and they will pick up after me and help me
achieve success. So when one of my Study Group members asked me to do a
healing for someone to open their chakras, I agreed willingly. I had no
problem finishing my script for the ceremony and recording it with my
Royalty Free background music. It takes about 8 1/2 minutes for
it to play completely. I explain what the person being healed does, mostly
allows the healing, and what a person does who wants to facilitate the healing,
asks to be nothing more than a tube for healing energy. I just asked
the others there to pray or visualize what is being said as the recording
plays.
37. My first healing ceremony went very
well. I had been experiencing problems with my knees getting weak under
the force of the energy, but I must be getting used to it because it's become
less a problem. My only problem for this healing was that while I
visualized and asked to be a tube, I could feel the rush of heat and energy
going pass my face. My Spirit Guides at work I'm guessing. It
was so hot sometimes, I'd bow my head to keep from experiencing it. The
air conditioning was on at the time too. When it was done, I felt tears
running down my face. The person being healed felt a pressure in her third
eye area of her forehead, which subsided when it was finished. What an
experience! I will tie back my long hair next time and make sure the air
is turned up higher.
38. I have not written here in a
while. Today is 11/07/08, and we have just elected a new president.
I find President Elect Barrack Obama so inspiring when he speaks and
try to listen to him whenever I can. I have great hope now for the future
of the U.S. and our economy, which apparently has an effect on the entire
world. By making history, Americans have shown our greatest
strength. I only write about this here because I was touched by this
election and how it inspired everyone to participate, even my only son for the
very first time decided he needed to vote. I believe we are finally on the
right track with this Mystical Traveler guiding the
nation.
39. I have personally done some hypnosis
sessions since I last wrote but not as many as after I graduated. I have
had some adversity in my life, which made me stop advertising hypnosis.
The part of my house I was using to do hypnosis came under a never-ending
renovation project. I have had problems with contractors not giving me
what I want or needed to complete the Study Group room, which must be accessed
to get my Hypnosis Room. Having to do this renovation alone was a big
emotional issue for me. I had a lot of bad feelings about doing
renovation at all and wasn't really sure why. That seems like a strange
phobia, but when you consider the invasion of your home with dust and mess, it
gets a bit clearer about where these blocks might
originate.
I have taken several steps for coming to
terms with this ongoing event. I tried self-hypnosis and meditation and
that wasn't helping much. I just would wake up each morning and try to
call people and get help with the project, and it was a huge chore for me,
as well as a lesson in rejection. I finally read Sylvia's book "Temples on
the Other Side" and began praying to go to these temples while I was asleep
for help. Most of the time I do not remember my dreams, so I can only
know that my prayers were answered because the renovation project got easier for
me. I had a waking memory of a past life where I was forced by a
conquering culture to renovate my home and rid myself of all my previous culture
for this new regime. That was an
awful memory.
40. This past life seemed to be the
source of my anxiety. As soon as I became aware of why I felt so strongly
about having to do it, there was a feeling of well
being, understanding, and healing. Change is hard for most of
us to embrace. I actually had to look at these changes in my
home like a job for a long time to finally achieve emotional
success. Thankfully, I was able to get a small home equity loan before the
economy started to get too bad. I consolidated all my bills into this one
lower interest loan. I made the loan for more than the payoff of my
bills. I put the extra money in my savings and checking
for the renovation. So far, I have been able to do the
much-needed repairs on my entire home and make it more energy efficient, warmer,
and a lot more comfortable.
41. The Study Group Room is finished
finally, but since I had cancelled our meetings for so long, I haven't been able
to start them up again since May 2008. I put out a request for
anyone still interested in attending to contact me. My hypnosis room has a
new more comfortable chair, and I have began to advertise hypnosis. The
renovation has moved on to my living part of the home and out of the reach of
the business area but still in progress. I am grateful to those here
and on The Other Side who helped me through it so far. I am also very
grateful for my retirement that has allowed me to continue this project without
having to stop and go back to work.
42. It is April 9, 2010. A long period of time has passed
since I last wrote on my story.
There is a reason for that.
I will try to explain what happened and where I feel I am headed
now. I continued to renovate areas
of my home even after I had spent the equity loan. I used my savings and now just my fixed
income and will for as long as I need to for this project to be
complete.
43. There were many bumps along the way,
including me getting very ill. I
never put another ad for hypnosis clients because I could never know whether I
was well enough to work day by day.
I got very angry about the VA’s medical care and contacted a caseworker,
who helped me to get the surgeries I needed to get better. Since you really need to say, “yes” to a
surgery you have been waiting for at the VA, I had two of them in a two-month
period during September and October of 2009. Both of them were very successful, and I
am so much better.
44. I started to feel like I wanted to go
back to work or do something. I
started traveling and have taken some great trips to places I have wanted to go
for a very long time. I have met
some great new friends and am now ready to learn more about my
spirituality.
45. I have been very attracted to paranormal
investigation for a while now, so I started looking for a group I can
participate with crossing over ghosts.
The problem is that most groups just want to do the technical work and
declare the space haunted or not. I
want to communicate and help the ghosts who are trapped there cross over. When I first read about his why ghosts
remain on this plane in Sylvia’s books, I felt a kinship with them. I wanted to help them immediately. Yet, I wasn’t sure how because I felt I
was not psychic, and only sensitive.
46. I finally found a group down in Las
Cruces, only 300 miles away, that actually did this kind of work, or they
claimed to. I never did get to go
out on an investigation with them or hear about how they crossed over any
ghosts. I do know they were very
picky about who joined the group. I
attended 3 of their meetings and right before the last one, I had a reading with
one of the advisors. She was to
determine if I was a good fit for their group. I didn’t mind the reading but wasn’t
sure what she could tell me that I didn’t already know. I will try to explain what she told me
to the best of my memory.
47. She said I was clairvoyant but did not
use my gift. She felt strongly that
I could channel as well. I told her
I did some auto-writing. She said,
“Well, that is channeling.” I had
never thought of it that way, but it is a form of channeling. I told her I had a strong feeling that I
had helped ghosts cross over in a past life. She said “You are doing it right now
already, when you sleep. Astral
traveling, you go to people who have had a traumatic death like in a car
accident or on the battlefield and help them understand what happened for them
to cross over.”
48. She felt I was a good fit for the
paranormal group but wouldn’t stay with them. She said my mission was to go where
needed and share my light and that’s what I’d be doing in the future. I asked her about what she saw around
me. She got a strange look on her
face and a smile. She seemed
genuinely delighted by what she saw.
She expressed that her visual was a distinct connect with the Divine and
the feminine principle. I explained
to her that I was one of Azna’s warriors.
49. I left this reading feeling like I was
drained and even took a nap that afternoon. The information she gave me was already
knowledge I had, but her most profound suggestion was that I could handle it
all. I had a great knowledge from
past lives that would propel me to do anything I need to well. That was my biggest fear, not being able
to handle it all. She said I had
many gifts and was not using them.
After hearing her say that, I felt like I should open myself to all my
gifts and ask for help in learning to use them better. I did not know how powerful a reading
could be until this one.
50. For a long time now, I have had an
internet group, where people can come and ask for help. The group and I try to give them
whatever assistance and encouragement possible over the internet. I have had people email me, and I have
also helped others in person. The
most powerful gift I actually have is that I can look at any problem and have
possible solutions come to me easily.
I don’t come up with solutions on my own. I might start the conversation with
that, but mostly suggestions just come to me. It’s like giving someone a reading but
more in a conversational form. I
was taught in counseling that you never advise people what to do. You give them suggestions or
possibilities, but the person alone must make the decision of how to
proceed. I find that to be most
empowering for each individual. I
can fish for you, or I can actually teach you to fish. I’d rather teach you to
fish.
51. I have decided, since I am feeling better and this reading has motivated me forward, I will offer both a psychic counsel and past life hypnosis, when I start up my business again. This will happen very soon, so I wanted to write about it here first, so that people might understand that I have been in denial about my gifts for a long time and not using them to the fullest extent. I have always felt I had the capabilities, but I’ve been blocking information all my life. I’m asking for all of it to come to me now to help others find their way and their own truth. I have no reservations about offering myself to do something I have actually been doing for a very long time. It is time.
52. I wrote a prayer to Mother God
Azna a while back that I have read to myself and outloud many times. This
morning, 04/25/10, I was preparing my petition and thanking God for all
those requests that I had been granted. I decided to read my prayer again
because it is part of my list. Just as I finished the last words, I felt a
sprinkling of love and light decend over me. The thought of stardust came
to mind. I was overwhelmed by the presence of Mother God. She blessed me this
morning just as I asked for in the prayer to her. https://foru2bhealed.angelfire.com/MotherGod.html
Sending love and
light...